My First

My first....i guess i ur picked a better title cause this isn't about losing my virginity to anything. Well it's long time since i posted anything that I've been thinking so what better way than to blog?


So um let's get some thing straight.

I'm not going to be here to make you happy, I'm here to say what i want and what i think, giving i want to share it, so if ur bothered by it, don't read it...that's just a suggestion though...

I don't want to hear what u have to say about what i say especially if its something like "u fucking jerk i cant believe u said that" cause hey ur entitled to having a blog too and writing things about whatever u want


Well now that we've established that point, i guess ill get started for realz!!!!!

Lots o' things have been happening lately but who cares to hear those? I sure don't, but something was struck in me on June 11th 2008 (yes, yesterday, don't go looking it up). At the evening Endless Summer something cool happened. Steve invited the whole room being 1st, college, and manteno churches, to partake in communion and to take a stand and to promise, for lack of a better word, to have everyones backs in the room, and to be leaders in the community and to do some other crap in the long run...it kinda got lost after a while, i think it was something like be with each other be one (gods church) not 3 seperate churches and to tell ur friends about jesus and to not run away from God he wants to help..the usual stuff.

Dont get me wrong, i loved the message, it was good, as steves usually are..but i think if we looked closer...

the saying goes, something like... dont hurt the messenger...well of course not, but how about the receivers?

The receivers of that nights message were all frauds..no thats unfair...many of them were. We know it, why even try to deny it? i saw but 2 people stay seated, kudos 2 people!! Had i the courage they had, i would too have seated and not stood up to be a "leader" like the rest. I did it cause everyone else was doing it and i didnt want to look dumb sitting, wrong reason? yes but i acknowledge it.

I am nowhere to being a leader and most of the ones who stood, especailly the ones so quick to stand arent. Hypocrites!!! like i love talking of hypocrisy its one of my favorite hobbies, ask my friends =]

Its amazing that those who tlak about change and those who "embrace it" and are leaders by god are the ones least qualified and whos right by no means to to stand up before the message is done. Months have passed when those people talk and talk and talk and talk and talk....you get the picture...it doesnt change...action past talking never occurs.

I know im not the perfect christian nor do i claim to be, on the contrary, i claim to pick and choose what i feel convinient from the bible, just like everyone else, except i admit it, which is unlike eveyone else. My religious views will come later...but when someone always holds the bible to be true, and when it bites them in the ass, they say they dont care or whatever not this time... what shit is that? dont claim the bible is your forever permanent strong foundation when u drag along a mobile home, doesnt work that way.

I know its hard not to be hypocritical sometimes..but when the fault is pointed out admit it, or you'll be worse off.

Many of those people who stood up were hypocrites, and im sorry steve, all those people wont be leaders they did it cause the person next to them did, maybe if someone had let the first group go on and wouldve been on that group's side they all would've been honest...but hey...God has a plan for everything right?



=] Hypocrisy!!! woot woot!!!