Hairspray, Dirty Little Secret, and Nachos Bell Grande

So I just got done watching Hairspray, and call me gay w/e but that movie is AWESOME!
Buuuut it got me sad
as happy as it is... it did
Because i was thinking about how happy everyone is in the movie, and i wish my life was happy all the time like that, and then i remembered something from a song..or the video of the song

In the All American Rejects' video Dirty Little Secret, where they show all the secrets on postcards, like on post secret, i remember one one there went something like

"T.V ruined my perception on life"

or something along those lines.
well its true for me
like everyone grows up that tv is like 95% lies, if not more, but even then, you can get so caught up in happy endings, exciting plot, unusual romance sequences, boy meets girl type things, and its like wow...my life sucks!
I know EVERYONE who has seen tv has thought that...like een when you were little and were watching cartoons and maybe some of u wished exciting things like that would happen to you, or even now, you wish that you would have an exciting story to tell abouit how you met the guy or girl of your dreams, and its sad to think that no matter what, you can never have the cookie-cutter-picture-perfect-ideal-exciting-goodlooking life

I mean im not like depressed that life isnt like that cause im a little bit more down to earth than than...the tips of my toes still touch the ground..but i mean its just a sad thought that you can get so caught up in a faux pas life scenario...i guess its cause subconsciencely we know that things like that never happen, or that they just wont happen to us, and thats why we get teary-eyed, or just hyped up with the adrenaline...

i also realized that nachos bell grande are amazing!!!

and damn taco bell people forgot to put sour cream on my taco supreme.....bitches!

I also think im a saddist...cause while i hear/see peoples lives fall apart, everything theyve created and like a big tyrannical dictator(who so far like 90% have) fall...i smile =]
I love to see 2 things
1. Innocence tainted(not sexually..usually, i mean like good kids gone bad)
and
2. Peoples worlds falling apart like theres no tomorrow =]

God...im going to hell
I hope not..cause im about to go like skim the bible cause i dont know if reading 2-5 passages is considered reading it...