Gah! Fathers Day Weekend!!!!!!!

Soooo this has to be the worst weekend ever as far as letting people down..

Steve asked me to be a delegate at the NYI convention in chicago tomorrow...and i cant because im working....

well...not only steve im letting down, but also rachel, whos play is this weekend, and i doubt i can go today....

also fathers day weekend...and im not going to my dads....

cause i got work...

mother f-er!

Well this sucks... but ok moving on
Recently I've had a lot of time to think..which usually isn't good... but i think i've finally yielded new results.
I saw this book at barnes and noble called...well id otn remember..but the tagline was They like jesus but not the church... and i was like "Hey! that's me!"
When i was Roman Catholic i saw many faults in it...and still do, but I'm begining to see why they do the things they do, and i agree more with it..but not enough.
So i moved to 1st church of the Nazarene, and many would now call me nazarene, and i agree to not get into a lengthy discussion of what i am..
i loved it, and the services, its views, its interpretation...but the longer i went there...the more faults i saw, in their interpretations...in the structure...the people...

Well ive been thinking that belonging to a church gives u an automatic label..not only socially, but also religiously like my non-church friends will be like "so you're nazarene" and ill say yes and they'll say... "oh, so you dont dance..." excuse me!! haha have u seen me at dances?! NO ONE will tell me what i can and cant do! Especially not a church full of hypocrites.
Dont get me wrong 1st churchers, im not singling you out, but it is inevitable that EVERY church is filled with hypocrites, i dont care who you are or where u are, it just happens..

But being associated with a church primarily puts u in a position like that. "Oh you go there then why do u do this if they say no?" well im tired of being called a hypocrite JUST because of an affiliation. I'm not saying i havent been a hypocrite before, because i have and i probably will do it again, its inevitable...but not because of an affiliation..i have my own views. i go to church to learn, not to be judged...so since the world will never change that aspect...im disaffiliating myself from a religion. if someone asks what religion i am ill say "I'm not" because it's not a religion, it's a relationship.